you suck.....SUCK....why do you have to bring death on BART into the picture. errrr. I ride BART everyday. I sit there and look at people....that guy there could blow me up and I'd never know it. Other day there a pair of shoes just sitting by a seat...no one would sit in the seats around them so I sat down...looked at them...and kicked em up a couple seats.haaa. I was like...dang....could be a shoe bomb.

I pretty much just sleep..that way....I'll die in my sleep. or be leaned over and saved by the bodies around me to crawl out of the train and die a horrible death by drowning surrounded by bodies.

I need to get a new job. Want to go back to santa cruz. No more SF. No more hour and half commutes. no more BART. no more sitting in the BART parking lot for 40 ****ing minutes to get a parking spot. errrrrrrrrrr.

see what ya did now...had to go say BART.

 

haha Cal is da man!

 

Best way to go = muffication ( lack of oxygen while eating red snapper)

 

Sometimes, but I've got a kid that would be devistated and I know others who would be hurt by it. A few might rejoice, but happiness is fleeting.

Try and help someone else.

 

Hey just to give my two cents and what I go through on a daily basis. The only thing that really gets me through the day is hope that tomorrow will be a better day. And when things get really bad, hang out with my friends until it blows over. So far the main thing that helps me is realizing there are people out there with far more serious troubles than what I'm going through.

For instance my friend in the Navy, Andrew, and his wife Ruby, have been trying for another child. Well one day Ruby got pregnant and all was good until the doctor said the baby might not make it. They decided to have the child and sure enough the baby had a hole in her heart. Well eventually the baby made it and she lived for two more months. Suddenly she got sick and the next day she died. My friend Andrew was on deployment still and was not able to get home for another month.

Here is a good man who is fair to everyone, who had to go through this extremely painful situation. After hearing this I felt sad, but my problems didn't seem like much after that. I still get depressed when things look bleak. But just knowing other people's hardships, make me carry on looking forward to tomorrow. Beside's I'm interested in seeing what/how my life progresses. I mean I can't go any lower than I am now.

Hope this helps. I've had two friends kill themselves already. And now that I know more about it and helping myself. I try to understand others.

Mike

 

Life is not fair

Can I have your car?

Please?

 

They were stationed in Bahrain. A little too expensive to just up and help.

 

thanks for sharing that, it puts everything into perspective when you hear of good people having to go through situations like that

 

w3rd

 

who knows when one's time is...

besides, the only words I know from the bible (other than Ezekiel 25:17) are "light is the absence of darkness" from Genesis.

 

"Git 'er done!" has to do with chasing the dragon in my parts

Arkady could elaborate more on that (reference: The Artist formerly known as Todd the Drunk)

 

Good thing Stalin took that to heart.

 

seek help.

 

Thanks Bev, I really appreciate your concern.

I own a gun, and I'm not trying to kill myself, or else I would have already.

This isn't about Suicide...

 

I would like to thank everyone who has posted here for their thoughts and concerns.

This thread was honestly never intended to seek compassion or sympathy in any way.

I posted this because I was curious if anyone else here has a deathwish or had one in the past.

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