If i die today what will happen tomarrow? <------ i aske my self this everyday. im not sure why i think this way. i see people leaving us left and right. and i have a feeling that maybe im next. life is too short to worry or even stress over the littles things in life. sometimes i wounder is dying would just stop everything and be at peace. the economy sucks my fathers getting laid off in about a month or 2 and i just dont know what to do, i need to find another job and help him out. i applied severl times and no response, i make min wage here in the city. i see people happy and having a good time and i say i wish i could have a good time. im going on a rant here so im going to stop. just need some one to chat i guess idk.

 

yea bro it's definitely tough for me right now too. My father got laid off three years ago and the house is just about to go over this summer. The rents really don't know what to do at this point, because my dad's been applying as a computer engineer for the past 3 years and hasn't gotten a single job... talk about a bad economy.

I'm currently paying off the heavy uc tuition purely with loans all in my name... on top of things, I just got injured badly from wrestling practice so my neck has scoliosis now, fractured my hip and elbow from skating all in the middle of giant papers and finals now coming up next week.

Life isn't always easy but through it all, at least i sleep warm at night and had 3 meals today. I'm not sure if you're religious or anything but I know for me at least God has a plan and by enduring all of this, He is only preparing me for things to come. Times are tough, but we got this.

Stay positive, God bless.

 

your words are strong...thank you

 

dont give up homie

 

Yea, people are everywhere in similar or parallel predicaments. Suicide isn't the answer, but busting your *** is. Tough spot and you gotta just keep on pushin. Gotta do the 40+ maybe even 60 or 80. Things just don't sit still anymore and everyone is gettin' liquidated. Don't do anything nuts, I'm sure there is support anywhere you look. Gotta hop on the roller coaster and ride it out.

Keep lookin' for ways out, don't give up and sit there like a rock and hope the government will welfare you, they too are in a crap hole and it's the citizens that gotta rise up and prevail. We always have... we can do it now, just gotta move the big gloomy cloud (the government) to reach that sunshine.

 

im tryin and thats all i can do for now

 

Life was rough for me in my late teens and early 20's, but as you get older things get better... Your brain adapts and learns to cope with things... Trust me man, it gets better. How old are you? What do you do? HS? College? Work?

You have a WRX at least! And at least you HAVE parents unlike some others... Be happy for what you have man... It could be A LOT worse... My family (cousins, aunts, uncles) had to come to the USA in the mid 90's because of the war in the former yugoslavia... Their entire town was "cleansed", meaning that every person that they grew up with or knew was murdered and buried in mass graves... So imagine that... Imagine having to grow up with those images in your head! Like I said, you adapt and things get better. My family is living nicely now in the good old USA and has moved forward... The key term there is "moving forward" and not stuck in reverse.

 

my mother past away on dec 25, 09 i only have my dad im about to be 25 in may, no school i work full time in the city @ a hotel.

 

Yea, you're doin alright compared to plenty of others. Just try to find that extra job, etc. One day at a time. =)

 

Whenever I'm feeling down and out, I always think how grateful I am to have my health and all my limbs. score!

 

Dude I feel you, I havent been doing good lately either. Ive been battling Anxiety/Depression (it runs in my family), hours cut at work and now I have to find another job, trouble with my family, problems with my girlfriend, college, etc. Honestly I hit rock bottom last week and I told myself that the only way I can go is up from here, I know it sounds gay but I try and take things in very small steps, keep myself busy and surround myself with good people. I dont know if your the religious type either but Ive been praying alot lately too. Just try to take things one day at a time and focus on little things that make you happy. Your not alone brother. I hope this helps.

Colton

 

OP, i think it would be worth your while to seek professional help from a doctor. While it may not sound like you need it, I think you will really benefit from it.

Just trying to help

 

I forgot to mention this, I visit my Dr. frequently and have seen a psycholigist before. It does help.